Hello Felix,
I am hoping everything is ok with you as well. I am still recovering from another major dental surgery 2 weeks ago and the good news is that this is going to be the last surgery. I definitely need to be reminded that, even though it’s no picnic to deal with the pain and discomfort of a surgery, it doesn’t last forever and that it’ll change for the better.
I am often surprised and astounded when I become conscious of the incredible insights I’ve gained during my first and only ceremony. Even without receiving the therapeutic dose, the benefits have been remarkable and life changing.I have clearly become a more compassionate person in general and a more understanding and loving spouse. Alex has a hard time processing this unexpected change.
I no longer criticize or berate him like I used to and I am consciously working on controlling my anger and dissatisfaction, especially when my Ego is threatened. It’s been a major breakthrough realizing that I am not always right, that it’s not about being right or wrong, that I don’t know everything better than the other person and that Love and helping others is paramount in Life worth living.
I am still working on my addiction issues and I am more hopeful about my ability to stop using drugs, kratom in my case. Even though kratom is not as toxic and dangerous as pharmaceutical opioids, I do consider kratom a drug as well and something I need to stop using.
Dear Felix, I have just felt like sharing a few thoughts with you and I always appreciate a response from you.
Lots of Love and Light,
Helena
Thank you for your lovely insight Helena. It is my sincere hope that you find the healing you are looking for.
Love, Feliz
Dear Feliz,
Thank you for helping me navigate the road to healing. Yes, this road is difficult and disturbing at times, however, I am suddenly realizing what a blessing it is to simply recognize the causes of my mental and physical suffering and to be able to hope that there is a way out of suffering.
Love,
Helena
Helena, how encouraging to hear the new found love you are showing yourself and your spouse. Mother Ayahuasa profoundly shows us our inherit love in that light it can only cycle outward as well. In gratitude, Dawn
Thank you for your comment Dawn. Yes, mother Ayahuasca offers profound insights and a realization, that it’s not going to be an easy journey, but really worth pursuing.
Love,
Helena
Helena I want to thankyou for sharing your experience, you’ve allowed me a greater understanding of how this journey has affected you.The awareness you have learnt about yourself is profound. Your words have humbled me through your utter honesty of recognizing when your ego is threatened .That Love and helping others is paramount and with your words this congruency of Love and support has been given …
Thankyou for all that you give
Light and Love
Dear Jody, I very much appreciate your comment. It’s incredible and very humbling to begin to internalize the power of Mother Ayahuasa. To come face to face with my Ego was not frightening, but powerful. The most powerful message that really affected me was: YOU ARE NOT TREATING ALEX (my husband) WITH THE RESPECT HE DESERVES. This has also made me realize that I have not treated others with the respect they deserved. I am still processing this message and understood to mean, that I should hear and respect other peoples’ opinions and insights and respect them regardless of my own convictions. Regardless, I am not kidding myself, I have a long road ahead to correct habits that have been around for a very long time. Actually, I’ll be 70 this month, lot of work ahead, but I am quite confident that Mother Ayahuasca will assist me on the road to recovery.
Love,
Helena